Everything in her life

Bye 2010

2010-12-22T16:34:00.003+08:00

Alright alright, we've come to the end of 2010 and I suppose this will be my final entry as well before we hit 2011.

Love,

2010-09-07T14:36:00.007+08:00

We quarreled yesterday.

On some "you-might-think-is-stupid-but-not" issues. Relief that it was settled before we parted, in the rain and us carrying an black umbella in the middle of the park below my house. It's like letting the tears flow with the rain kind of stuff. Cute shit.

I never like white apologies. Caused it's like an apology filled with lies, doubts and dark clouds that deep down in the heart is not sincere and pure. You are doing it to please somebody, but since you are not in the wrong, don't apologise. There are always situations where neither parties are in the wrong and it's just perspective difference.

Anyway, sad stuffs aside. Am starting school soon! One step closer to my degree *Screammmm*

God, please fast forward 1 year 6 months pleaseeeeeeeeee!

Blinded

2010-07-27T23:00:00.002+08:00

We always tend to believe in what other people say, and those who don't, tend to have doubts.

Not wise.

For me, if someone is going to tell me that something bad is going to happen to me or my love ones, and I have to do something to prevent it from happening, I might.

Why? For the fear of losing myself and that someone that I love.

From now, I will want to only believe in the good stuffs and ignore the bad ones.

After all, one does not need to place their fate in the hands of somebody, but themselves.

We live our own life.

Our life, the home of our soul.

Going Slow

2010-07-18T17:43:00.002+08:00

Life is going slow now.
New job is kind-of relax.
Dad is recovering well.
Family is good.
Boyfriend is still as lovable.

Life is, good. Where are the excitement?

My Family, My Life

2010-06-04T12:54:00.002+08:00

"Doctor said the 3 main arteries of Dad are stuck, 2 of which is 100% and the other 1 is 80%. Kid, he needs a heart bypass..."

My eyes literally pop out when sis delivered this gloomy news to me, and what's better, I was in office fighting war. Tears rolled down and suddenly the glaring sun doesn't seems to be that unlikable anymore.

Daddy's condition was quite serious as he had occasional breathing difficulties and the heart screening results didn't seem to help us in anyway before the operation. He became even more paranoid of his own condition and was more vulnerable.

To all smokers, that's what smoking leads to. A damaged heart.

Indeed, people that is going for operation tends to need lots of patience and concern in attending to their needs and worries. There must be no hush voices and tones, probably 'baby' is the word most suited for them.

Now that the operation is over, I must really thank god and my dearest Daddy for hanging on so well. He is doing good and recovering well. I must say for the last two weeks, i felt team work. Be it from my sis, my mom or my bro that is studying oversea, Bravo for all of you.

I hope Daddy is gonna recover well and we can go Bird Park soon. :)

I love my family, the family of my life.

Un-peace

2010-04-25T11:07:00.000+08:00

Wth, not a good feeling.

Happiness

2010-04-20T09:32:00.001+08:00

is laughing your heart out in the train with him on a blue Monday night :)

Kiss.

Being a student all over again

2010-04-16T13:43:00.003+08:00

That's it. I submitted my application form for RMIT, Bachelor in Mass Communications.

I'm gonna be a Student again!!!!! *Jump in excitement*

But well, I shouldn't conclude too soon as bf is suffering like hell now with exams and assignments piling up.

Soon, it will be my turn for all the shit stuffs like loans, assignments, projects, exams plus finding a job that can accommodate my study time (Which is leaving work on time - not very possible in my industry, am so dead, but whatever)

Anyway, it's mum's birthday today, gonna feast tonight :)

Love,
Esta

In a Mess

2010-02-22T22:24:00.001+08:00

I don't know what is happening.

My life.

Small Surprise

2010-01-18T21:18:00.002+08:00

Baby came to have dinner with me today.

Duper Happy:)

Sleep Talking

2009-12-27T23:16:00.003+08:00

Esta is...

- doing great damages to her health
- not eating well
- not taking good care of her skin
- not getting enough vitamins
- not getting enough SLEEP
- having war almost every single day at work
- taking way too much cab
- not shopping as much now
- waking up in the afternoon on weekends (I usually don't, but I'm sleep deprive)

... going to bed now with 10% remaining voice, hoping that it's enough for tomorrow's war.

Precious Time

2009-11-29T22:30:00.002+08:00

Work is fine.
People is fun.

Time is ...
Never enough.

Weekend is officially for sleeping and fairly distributing time for everybody.

Weekdays are as always numb and we subconsciously hope that the following day is a Friday.

The key word is always about balancing.

2-3am in a row is not encourage.

Boyfriend is slowly protesting for a little more time.

Request granted.

Terms and conditions apply.

Survival

2009-11-22T12:23:00.002+08:00

I hope that's the whole picture.

We always need to spend some time with ourselves to make a deal with our thoughts.

Looking forward to Christmas!

Hope

2009-11-13T14:38:00.001+08:00

Esta hopes to have a Merry Christmas!

Decision

2009-11-12T15:51:00.001+08:00

Should I take on?

I must step out of my baby zone and be like a leech.

Crave

2009-11-11T22:22:00.002+08:00

I got sudden carve for ice cream, not cheapo ones.

I couldn't stop myself from imagining a scoop of heavenly smooth, rich and chilly ice cream moving slowly down my throat.

It's as good as having a deep wet smooch from baby.

Life's good so far. The routine from poly days is back - wake up, watch tv, brunch, watch tv, nap/free time, dinner, watch tv, bed.

DANG!

It's sick, It's scary, it's additive and it's killing me.

I must get this illness off me and hopefully I'll get some light by end of this week.

P/s: Bro is flying off to America (But first to Tokyo, DAMN IT!) for a one year study programme. Good luck bro, come back safely in a piece and we'll miss you!

Acceptance

2009-11-10T23:52:00.000+08:00

I am here now, I'm wanna go there :)

Strength

2009-11-09T00:10:00.004+08:00

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way then it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

10 min rant

2009-11-05T22:08:00.004+08:00

I don't know since when, we started having time limit on phone calls.

I don't know since when, we haven't been dating like how we used to in the past.

I don't know since when, we started meeting less then 3 days in a week.

I don't know since when, dinning at a restaurant is an issue.

I don't know since when, watching a movie is no longer a routine.

I don't know since when, going out with you on a Friday night is like a luxury.

I don't know since when, I try not to occupy your time to give you more time.

I don't know since when, I miss you more each day.

I don't know since when, I hope to see you popping by out of the blue.

I don't know since when, I hope to see you graduate soon.

I don't know since when, hopes that I won't be as busy when it's my turn next year.

I don't know since when, we realised that we need to grow up.

I don't know since when, I hate growing up.

I don't know since when, I'm so sure that I'll never leave you and I'll be there for you.

Baby, my promise to you.

Funny

2009-11-05T13:45:00.000+08:00

I thought I needed to restart something in my life, So TADA, I restarted my blog. If only the things in life could be of same functionality as our blog.

We write our own story and publish it. Any negative comments, no worries, click edit.

Simple.

But in reality, not simple at all.

Fair enough, we can choose our own path, but at your own consequences.

What's the most common factor in affecting one's decision?

Money.

How good can it be if money isn't a factor at all.

But the funny thing is, if Money is to be removed totally from this world,

What are we living for?
What are we fighting for?

Funny.